A month left for the D-day to come! I feel jittery but I am trying my best to keep feelings at bay…emotions are looking for a space to express themselves but I have controlled them, suppressed them. Why are weddings such a big deal? I know it is the biggest day of your life. A life altering moment. But why can’t it be smoother, simpler,with less pressure!
As a woman, you start your new life—literally! Giving up your home, parents and family, who know you, can bear your tantrums and yet love you unconditionally. Now, you begin the process all over again…it’s not easy. If people really talk about experiencing something ‘different’--- they should certainly try this! What an adventure!! Atleast in my case, I know the guy, we have been dating for so long.
Still, it is not easy, neither for me, nor for him! I don’t know how to stay strong and composed since the memories of childhood, time spent with cousins keep floating by. Showering of their love and constantly throwing lovingly lines like, “Soon you will go away” or “Spend some time with us as you would be starting a new life” makes me nervous! After all I am here—in Delhi only! Yet, the distance will grow, they say…not a comforting thing to hear!
I am battling to stay calm and composed, restricting my tears to my throat and gulping it as water. I don’t want to get weak. It is a beautiful beginning and I want to be positive and happy! Let’s hope I win the battle by leaving my home smiling and not crying!
I need you guys to make it possible!!
As a woman, you start your new life—literally! Giving up your home, parents and family, who know you, can bear your tantrums and yet love you unconditionally. Now, you begin the process all over again…it’s not easy. If people really talk about experiencing something ‘different’--- they should certainly try this! What an adventure!! Atleast in my case, I know the guy, we have been dating for so long.
Still, it is not easy, neither for me, nor for him! I don’t know how to stay strong and composed since the memories of childhood, time spent with cousins keep floating by. Showering of their love and constantly throwing lovingly lines like, “Soon you will go away” or “Spend some time with us as you would be starting a new life” makes me nervous! After all I am here—in Delhi only! Yet, the distance will grow, they say…not a comforting thing to hear!
I am battling to stay calm and composed, restricting my tears to my throat and gulping it as water. I don’t want to get weak. It is a beautiful beginning and I want to be positive and happy! Let’s hope I win the battle by leaving my home smiling and not crying!
I need you guys to make it possible!!
4 comments:
Hey Tushita
Very well expressed and yet words are not enough to express what one goes through at this time.... it's an emotional rollercoaster ride and as u say, it's the starting of life anew and making new bonds and ties.... u r happy and yet sad.... however, here's wishing you all the very best for the new journey and hope u stay happy always :)
While I would literally never comment on a public post I do think this one begets some form of acknowledgement :)
You are a strong girl. Always have been and always will be. I DO think that this whole marriage business is always blown out of proportion. It used to be a big deal when the girl went into a family as a stranger as in an arranged marriage. You are one of the few lucky ones who get to marry the love of their life who is someone you know, trust, respect and who in turn feels the same way about you.
Your cell number will not change, your parents will not change, your support system will not change and neither will your relationship with your family. Yes you would be living somewhere else but if distances were relationship builders god only knows where we would have landed up :D The biggest adjustment would be living away from ma and baba and tough as that will be you are in the same city.
Think of marriage as an addition of people and relationships in your life. No one can or will replace family or ties you already enjoy. All we do through marriage is forge new ones.
Love you loads and always!
Congrats... since you wants to be happy and positive so I thought of remove these negative thoughts from your mind "Giving up your home, parents and family"...
Your not giving up your home, parents and family instead your going take the responsibility of happiness of a new home, a new parents and a new family - all belongs to the dear one of you - moreover your going to be a cheer, joy, happy, courage, strength even life of the person who loves you.
I am also wishing you a happy and prosperous road ahead in your married life.
After writing all this I am sure you can not wait any more for the D-Day. :)
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