Music inspires and soul-stirring ones takes you to another planet...as I listen to the mesmerising songs of Nauka Dubi (movie), I wonder why are we always struggling to find answers of things that are beyond our comprehension and reach?--- we grapple to understand life, how does one optimally live it? what is love--- is it only about what you give to others and get back, or is it about going within? I don't know, and I don't want to know...
I have spent 27 years of my life, the way I wanted to, of course with my parents support and guidance. I have been brought up as an independent girl, never once I was made to feel that I am a 'girl'! Is that not THE greatest achievement of any parent/s?
These days, the time goes by so quickly that I don't find time to be with myself, live the moment! The madness of wedding preparations have consumed all my time plus the usual work life and gym hardly leaves me with any energy!
I am not feeling anything these days---I mean I am getting married! It is not a joke...new life, new people, suddenly you are thrown out of your comfort zone and asked to re-orient, re-design your life. That is definitely something! Yet, this whole feeling seems to be outside of me. A woman has to go through such a big change, yet, why is she alone going through all this? Her folks, correction-Dad, weeps and feels sad of losing his daughter...why do dads cry more than mums? May be because they don't want to alter their lives while mums are already used to that. Did my dad cry when mum left her place post their wedding? I think not! then why does this happen when it comes to their daughter?
Terms like nervous-bride, bridezilla--overwhelmes me! I mean, why tag the poor girl going through such an emotional, mental and physical change??? It is a beautiful moment, when it actually happens...but till then, its crazy! So many thoughts fighting for limited space in the brain and how can one accommodate all these?
At this moment, I just feel like singing, drown myself in music and numb my senses!
3 comments:
This truly a touching piece. I know,every thing aroud you would seem like a dream...some in slow motion and some in fast...and the irony is the that the best things that u want to experience a little longer.. hardly hold on to time...But my dear tushii...u know what... ur warmth and positive energy will make other's around u miss u more than u will miss them...u are a breeze of fresh air,a dew of fresh droplet,a fragance of fresh flower and last but not the least an amicable and a lovely person...cherish every moment...like its never before....lov u loads.....
thanks Shriya!sheeeshhh...its the fragments of pre-wedding blues! sigh :)but ur comment cheers me up to no end!
Girls cry because it is their surname that gets changed. When it is not so, yet she is wife of so and so. Overnight the change happens. You can be yourself as you wish with the people who have seen you grow. But you have to put your best foot forward when you tread out to face the world that has suddenly become yours. A girl needs to change more than the boy and I know that is not right but that's how it is. At least that is expected. But of course there are exceptions and Amlan will be one. Regarding dads crying. Well girls and dads have a special bond. And mums know to keep mum and within.
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